Lepas solat Capai hp  Tersengih sendirian. Penangan whatsapp barangkali.. Penangan wechat barangkali.. Penangan ig barangkali.. Penangan fb barangkali.. Jari laju mengetuk skrin telefon. Laju sampai terlupa adab dengan allah lepas solat. Zikirnya tiada.. Alunan surat cinta dariNya tiada.. Apatah lagi, doa.. Kita ambil mudah. tapi, Cuba bila time hati kita remuk, Cuba bila time kita tersungkur, Tak larat nak bangun.. Tak mampu nak handle suatu ujian.. Doa kita jadi khusyuk.. Zikir kita jadi khusyuk.. Alunan bacaan surat cintaNya dibiarkan menyusup di hati.. Bila kita susah kita cari allah.. Bila kita rasa senang sikit, mudahnya kita lupakanNya. Hei, Cuba belajar untuk 'setia'. 'Setia' bercinta denganNya tak kira susah atau senang. :) Selamat bercinta dengan pencipta cinta.

Love is troublesome

I just wanna highlight that love is something that can weigh you down but at the same time it miraculously heal your misery. I found that love is beautiful if you hold to it carefully, and it can turn otherwise if you take it for granted. Love is something that I could not talk about it much because it is totally mysterious. Day by day, you will discover new thing about love. Your feelings and emotions are mixed up when you encounter love. I assure you, someday you will meet your love. Be it towards human, living things or anything. Ultimately our love is all relying to our God. The Greatest God and the one whom we should give our love to Him. Without love towards Allah, it is impossible for us muslims to care about other human dont cha think. Put Allah first before anything else.

You may not meet true love yet so sometimes you couldnt even comprehend what the love song is about, you are puzzled on how people are so fragile if their loved one break their hearts, but yet you will discover that feeling. It slowly crawls onto you and stick to you until you understand what it is about. If that were to happen, you will be that one of people who are willing to do anything because it is love. Some people want to avoid being in love because of a few reasons. They might be traumatised because of their pasts and we just couldnt blame them at all. They are merely human too who need empathy.

Being in loved is troublesome soemtimes.

I PASSED MY FIRST PRO EXAM!

Im back. ha ha ha okey, I am not impressed because I have left this blog unattended for quite some time. My bad.

Apparently, I am having a 2 months and half of holiday! AND OF COURSE I PASSED MY 1ST PROFESSIONAL EXAM!! Yeah, I finally did it. This is the part I want to share with you people, about how I managed to go through my first year as a dental student and what lessons I have learnt. So far this journey is just, maybe a drop of water in a glass?(teruknya analogi ko dahlia) Still there are so many challenges that I should overcome and keep struggling. I know that. I am going to feel anxious and hesitate of what will be coming, but I guess I am exhilarated the fact that I will be a dentist in a few years. Sabarrrr Dahlia sabarrrr.

I was wrong when I think this course would be easy. All those mental breakdowns and tears just give me the urge to give up this course. I know, I was weak. Sometimes, I asked myself "Is this journey will be worthy or should I just keep crying and regretting the decision that I made?" NO. I NEVER REGRET. It has never crossed my mind to regret of being a dental student. I love dentistry. I have never have this deep passion towards towards other thing, except for dentistry.

I may be stumbled, knocked down to my knees. But that is the essence of learning. Love hurts right? Same goes to dentistry. Even though it aches, but I keep making steps forward. Rather than being all weak and pessimist, I try to convince myself that I can. I will do it.

Some would say, "eleh, orang lain selamber je boleh belajar jadi doctor and dentist, kau lembik nak menangis bagai. attention seeker la tu". Look dude, I know what I am capable of. I know when I can keep this thought bottled up or just let it burst out. I know when I can struggle and just swallow all those pain and tears and act like nothing. Sometimes you should never compare your abilities with others if that makes you more demotivated. Yes, comparison is good, it will give you some spirits to challenge yourself. However, dont go ovearboard will ya?

There you go, I am just putting up these pictures here because they deserve to be acknowledged by me hahaha. All my studying and revisions which I did during this year 1 of BDS. Mind you, I love library. Library has become my fundamental spot to study. :)

What was my blog's name once again?

Now I feel so guilty because I actually forgot my blog's name!! It took me a while then I decided to sign in and 'oh this was the name' kind of monologue to myself. I havent updated anything since January and it makes me feel quite shameful. I do think I have lost the feeling of excitement to write some posts and blogging due to some reasons. Maybe I was too cope up with my life as a dental student and went on so bermalas-malasan whenever I had free time. I will update a few things but somehow, I need to get some works done. Bye see ya.

Goblin

I am currently having a break after sitting for my pre-pro examination last week. It was one of the hellish week that I had went through. Aint going to talk about. Next time.

Right now, I just want to emphasize on a new drama(not so new anymore), Goblin. A korean drama of course. I am obsessed with this drama because it was freaking good! I would rate it 4.7/5, which actually rank first in my favourite drama list!! Beating, DOTS(well I dislike the female lead, hence the reason though).

I am that type person who will watch the drama and stop in the middle due to boredom or lose of interest. Some of them maybe just 1 or 2 first episodes and then I will give up. Thus, it explains well why I rarely watch dramas.

It was otherwise for Goblin. I like the plot, the actors and actresses plus the bromance between the Grim Reaper and the Goblin! The female lead is sooooo kawaii that I actually want to squeeze her. Her face is the face of real beauty of Korean girl unlike those plastic surgery freaks. And that ahjusshi(male lead) looks handsome. I like his face now compared to during his time in Coffee Prince haha. That concludes, the older the man, the more handsome he will be right?

Among of their OSTs that I like.

I am still surviving

Hey, looks like I break my words again about not leaving the blog empty. I am sorry dear lifeofburningold. I am here just want to say, I am still surviving dental school. Or should I say, I HAVE TO SURVIVE. Oh Lord, help me and ease our studies, I know it is difficult and there will always people who are smarter, but all I want is for both of us to finish studies and obtain the scrolls. Both of us insya-Allah.

  

My bestfriend is in Aussie!

14th July, I sent off my bestfriend to the airport. She is doing accounting in Aussie and will graduate by the next 3 years where I will be here, stuck in IIUM finishing my Bachelor of Dental Surgery pfft..

Thank God I had the chance to see her for the last time before she flew off. I am not sure how to describe this girl. Everything about her is just perfect for me. She is one of the blessings that Allah has bestowed upon me. Alhamdulilah because Allah has destined you and I to meet and become bestfriend for life. :)

Reminiscing the memory, we had been through a lot of things. Quarreling, loving, crying, love-hate relationship. To be honest, I was quite a stubborn girl before. Big-headed and 'garang' (garang2 comel je k). I was way too sensitive and easily get sulk just because of simple things. I am totally impressed up until now on how they cope up with this super-sensitive girl. Like it was amazing that they can stay with me despite of the chaos and pain that I caused to them. 

But it is worth it in the end.

Our friendship stay strong like nothing can break it apart. We knew each other very well. Supporting each other through ups and downs. Listen to each other's problems. Advising each other for what is good and wrong without a single judgement being made. I am not sure how I would survive without these people. They are my backbone besides my family. 

There was this case that happened during Form 3. We had a fight, I mean a massive one because we did not speak to each other for about 2-3 months I reckoned. Of course, it was my fault from the beginning, being too sensitive and stubborn as usual. It made me realize that I could not survive without them. I was totally in despair and engulfed by desolation. From that moment, I solemnly promised to myself that I will take good care of this friendship and will never break it. I had never feel so much love for other people except for them. I love you Aquamarine. 

need to censor my face and Umi's. hehe

Aqila Yasmin is one of the strongest girl I have met. She is that kind of girl who is totally determine to achieve her dreams despite of what people said. She would never be indecisive and once she set her mind to achieve her goals, she will do it even though it requires big sacrifices, Well, she is a beauty with brain. A multi-talented person she is. A debater. A good daughter. A humble student. Someone will be lucky to marry you, you know that Aqila?! haha Ish, I feel like marrying you right now hahaha

Loving this picture soooo much because we looked so blithe! Even though I was in grief :(

Looking so happy huh dekat Aussie. Bawak balik Mat Aussie sorang please. hik3

I love you so much my bestfriend. Thank you for being with me, the one who gives you headache before hehe. But trust me, I will be there with you if you ever need me. Jaga iman jaga diri dekat sana k bae.