Many things happened thoughout that period; disputation, laughing, crying, stressed out.. It's funny though when i recall those memories back. I ditch my friend.. I mean my bestfriend. How i wish i can turn back the time again and fix everything. I just regret it now...
We went to Mega Mall for prefects occasion and that thing happened in a blink of an eye. The day when we had some conflicts and disputed over small things. It was too funny because your bestfriend could be a stranger in front of you right now. After all the time that we've spent together, the memories created and sharing problems, all you can do is pretend that she is a mere friend. No longer a bestfriend of yours. Not anymore.
Both of us are too egoistic. Too dumb to realise that friendship is much more important. I was stupid for letting her go, for not persuading her at the first place. I put my ego too high before our friendship. I made a selfish decision and thinking she should apologise to me.. No, we both are wrong in this matter. We both are flawed and couldnt complete each other because of our egoism.
Just why? Why i didnt say 'im sorry' that time.. Why did things end up like this? Why at this time?
I miss her right at this moment. I miss our friendship so damn much that i feel so sad watching us right now. How we make a gap with each other. How clueless we are and how speechless when we are alone. Too awkward to even say hi. I hate when our eyes met. It's like you are telling me how egoistic and selfish i was, and how you despise me that much. Dont look me like you are telling me to go away. Please, i cant bear that.
I just hope that someday God will bridge our ways together and mend this bond. Please... I just miss her. Can we really be bestfriend again?
