I cant breath properly.

'Aku sesak hati tengok tempat ni. Aku nak keluar dari sini'

That statement is pondering in my mind now. I was feeling hopeless. Feeling like this place is too cruel for me till i barely can breath properly. Like this place suffocates me and I need, i need an inhaler for an asthmatic patient. This sucks. Damn sucks. I hate this. The predicaments that i go through all this while were pressing me. Too much things that fly into my mind. Too much responsibilities that i need to bear. Come to think of it, this year is quite despressing. Wait no no. I mean my teenager's life is quite despressing. Well it is undeniable when people say that being a teenager is a hard task to do especially when it comes to choosing your friends. 

This cruelty is going overboard somehow. People just love to judge you. They just talk ill about you and for them, it is fun to make someone's life in hell. Curse that type of person. Curse them.

I have found quite people whose attitudes are damn annoying, being judgemental and sooooo boring. They are no fun. Really. What about being judgemental? Yes and yes, i cant deny it that each of us can be judgemental without noticing it. People judge me. People look me like i was a trash. That time was quite hard  for me. I cried. Getting angry. And getting depressed. But one thing that i hate about myself. I dont show my emotions to other. I dont show to people that i have problems and seeking for attention. No. IM NOT LIKE THAT TYPE OF TYPICAL GIRLS OUT THERE. So i learn that people who write "Menangis dalam bilik semalam :') ", "Mata lebam sebab menangis", "Kau tak tahu aku menangis semalam sebab kau!" Can someone please clear things out about this? Why would you post that kind of things on your social website? Attention seekers? Want people to console you? This is bullshit. Dont go and showing off your problems. Your problems were all smaller compared than others and yet you want the world to know it. Damn irritating.

People just think that i was being happy and always make jokes. But hey, i do have problems. But i thought that my problems should be kept just to myself. So im not an attention seekers. Those attention seekers should dig their graves and bury themselves. Too much complaints and too much bimbo. While im here just be happy and put my problems aside when im around people. I dont think there is a need to let people know my problems and want them to coax me. There are too much things that i need to solve rather than being weak and cry till i have panda's eyes. People dont know the reason why am i being like this. Cold-hearted and dont care about others' bussineses. Because i have seen too much. Too much tragedy that keeps haunting me till now.

*Seriously, i am annoyed with certain people in my class. U really want to kick them right to their faces so they learn how to be nice and smile. And just stop 'hushhh'-ing me!!!