Have u ever felt that you dont belong here? You dont belong anywehere? It's like people just dislike you and loathe you. Just because. Maybe because you look desperate much? Or you look socially awkward. And you are just being uncordial to everyone. Well im lacking of things like warmth and friendliness i guess. Sigh. Actually i was not a girl like now. I still remember when i was the old me. Im happy and just happy. Thats all. Im still happy now but the thing was not the same anymore. It was different. DIFFERENT.
I think that i take people's feeling too serious. It is damn hard to care others' feeling when your heart is hurt. You are in agony, in anguish. Severely in pain. omg too much hyperbole here. whatever.
So back to the topic. Actually things happen for reasons and those things shape me for who i am today. So if you see that i become a cold-hearted person now, yes a tragedy keeps haunting me. Duhh. That tragedy was a disaster for me. A misery i should say. So i do agree when people say that im snobbish. cocky or just a plain girl who deserves a slap on her face. LOL hypebole once again. Whut? haha
So apparently, i feel like gving up and feel like wanting to be an ignorant. You know, be selfish. Sometimes i feel that if we keep caring others' bussiness in their life, we are deserved to get slapped. Right on both cheeks. Lol. i realised that i used 'slap' quite many today. Oh yeah, i feel like slapping people now. Feel like kicking people and punch them right on their face. Oh my god, i feel so satistfied. If only i can do that i feel much relieved mehhh.
