Bismillahirrahmanirrahim,
It has been awhile doesnt it? How I miss my long posts that I used to write. But it totally contradicts now, as my mind dont really have nothing particular to say. To be exact, my fingers dont want to tap the keyboards as frequent as they used to. Grr..
Basically, I am at my home now, away from CFS for awhile. How distracting to be there actually as all my problems are from there which I extremely dont want to face them.
HEART AND LOVE.
These two things are tangled to each other. When someone in love, their hearts beat faster than usual. So fast that they feel a terrible press on their heart, aching for it. It's funny how these two plunged you into a massive discomfit. You feel anxious, you feel flustered, you feel unsettle and you feel happy on the other side. It makes you yearn for it more and more but the side effect for it is, you suffer.
How cunning ay?
I myself feel so awkward when it comes to love. Yeah, I never had a boyfriend before. During my school time, it was quite hard to find your ideal man there. As if the boys were below your criteia haha. Actually, it was my fault to begin with because I think study is much more important than having partner during school. Im not even interested yet. Nevertheless, I do have someone that I adore which I really had hard time to open up for someone. It was quite a period for me to have feeling for him until one day I realised he already has someone he likes. How ironic..
Let me say, I am one of the people yang susah sangat nak cintakan orang. I got trillion crush-es out there but a people that I really love? It's very hard to find one. Aku pun tak tahu hati aku ni nak apa. Why it's so hard for me to fall in love. Nope, my heart is not that keras nak mati takde perasaan tu. Im not that type of people yet. But I assure you guys, once I have my eyes on that particular person, it's not easy to move on. I am a loyal person to be honest. Even to my friends, my loyalty will not fade away.
Im just hoping that someday, someone will walk into my life and stay. Stay and accept me as who I am but even so, he will guide me to the right path and lead me into a life full of blessings. I need someone who understands me, who can endure the obstinate me. But most of all, I just want to ask Allah to give the best for me because Allah is All Knower.
# why did I wrote this? my heart is being stubborn now. Why does it have to be conquered by this stupid feeling.
Basically, I am at my home now, away from CFS for awhile. How distracting to be there actually as all my problems are from there which I extremely dont want to face them.
HEART AND LOVE.
These two things are tangled to each other. When someone in love, their hearts beat faster than usual. So fast that they feel a terrible press on their heart, aching for it. It's funny how these two plunged you into a massive discomfit. You feel anxious, you feel flustered, you feel unsettle and you feel happy on the other side. It makes you yearn for it more and more but the side effect for it is, you suffer.
How cunning ay?
I myself feel so awkward when it comes to love. Yeah, I never had a boyfriend before. During my school time, it was quite hard to find your ideal man there. As if the boys were below your criteia haha. Actually, it was my fault to begin with because I think study is much more important than having partner during school. Im not even interested yet. Nevertheless, I do have someone that I adore which I really had hard time to open up for someone. It was quite a period for me to have feeling for him until one day I realised he already has someone he likes. How ironic..
Let me say, I am one of the people yang susah sangat nak cintakan orang. I got trillion crush-es out there but a people that I really love? It's very hard to find one. Aku pun tak tahu hati aku ni nak apa. Why it's so hard for me to fall in love. Nope, my heart is not that keras nak mati takde perasaan tu. Im not that type of people yet. But I assure you guys, once I have my eyes on that particular person, it's not easy to move on. I am a loyal person to be honest. Even to my friends, my loyalty will not fade away.
Im just hoping that someday, someone will walk into my life and stay. Stay and accept me as who I am but even so, he will guide me to the right path and lead me into a life full of blessings. I need someone who understands me, who can endure the obstinate me. But most of all, I just want to ask Allah to give the best for me because Allah is All Knower.
# why did I wrote this? my heart is being stubborn now. Why does it have to be conquered by this stupid feeling.
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