Hai there. lol im talking to no one. Whatever /o/
So just a bit story of mine. So, 19/12 I went to Teluk Chempedak a.k.a TC. Well just for fun. So before that, i went to see my juniors getting their results (PMR). Alhamdulilah because GPS for my school increased and of course our ranking went up. I just like it because other schools' achievement is quite bad. I know my juniors can do it. They beat us! My batch just can gave 15 persons but they? 31. Double from us! Cool huh~

I will miss them. For sure. I just cant imagine how school without them. I mean, they are adorable. Maybe next year some of them will go to another school. For better future. Tbh, i dislike it.

Nordiyana Binti Zaidi. She will be moving to Taiping, Perak this month. This shocking news jsut unbearable. She is the most adorable junior. The fact that I wont see her again next year is just heart-breaking. Anyway, congratulation to her for getting straight A's. I know, she is something. She is just lovely to me. Oh yeah, next to her, Farhana Nadhirah! Congrats to her for acing the PMR!

So, afterwards I went to TC with Aida, Anith, Qayyum and Azirul. LOl weird isnt it? A guy with a bunch of girls went out together. I didnt expect him to go with us actually. So we took rapidKuantan to go there. I was so excited at first! But with those crowded people, and we were packed inside of it like i could die for feeling too anxious. haha. Cuak!

Lemme tell something. Im so jealous of people who go to Islamic school. Like Maahad, SMKA, KISAS and etc. Deep in my heart, i feel so humble, Feel so small between people who went to islamic school, memorise al-Quran and wear tudung labuh. Not to forget, they are smart. Oh, i like smart people. hehe

So, i log in my facebook almost everyday. My friend list are quite something with people from Maahad, KISAS, and SHAMS. I read all the updates. I saw those students from boarding school with their friends. Im jealous. JEALOUS is a strong word! So let's say im too excited to see them and i know i dont have that kind of thing. Sadlife T^T.. Their ukhuwah is so great. The school is somehow relieving to see. It's really magnificient to see every muslimah wear tudung labuh and cover their aurat properly. I know i wont see this kind of ambience in my school. My school is just SMK. Nothing much. But Im lucky to have friends who reminds me of Allah. My friends who are crazy just like me.

I saw my 'unnie's photos in her facebook. She is someone i know from her blog. I found her blog and added her at facebook. Suprisingly she studies in UIA Kuantan. 6-9 December, IKOD was held in UIA. But I couldnt meet her due to some reasons. Quite sad. T_T I like her. How i wish to be jsut like people i admire. 

Just a thought.

I dont know what to do. Im wasting my holiday unproductively. Sigh. I thought I had many plans to do this holiday without regrettably wasting it. Each day, same things happened. Same routine for a month. Im too bored to do nothing but too lazy to do something. Why is this happening? Next year I will be regretting it for sure. Too much procrastinating, too lazy, dont feel productive at all.

I should chin up. I should buck up. All these things are not going to solve my problems. It's getting bigger and bigger like a balloon soon to be exploded. Next year. I dont want to think about it honestly. But those thoughts keep pondering in my mind and i cant resist from not thinking about it. :( I do think next year will be tough. Of course, i will be sitting for SPM and that feeling is making me sick. I cant bear to think about how i will be next year. I saw my seniors taking their SPM. They were busy like bees. Tuition, class after school, camp, bengkel, PISA. All those are exhausting and i'll be like them next year.

My mom put high expectation on me. Whenever i say that i want to be a doctor or i get good results or whatever i do, she will be always talking , 'So belajar la leklok, jadi doktor. Jangan main'. So i really dont want to keep her down. I wanna show her that her youngest daughter will make her proud. But of course, to make things happen it's a burden though. It's not easy. Unless im a genius. There was a time where, i showed bad results to her. Well i almost got F for my Addmath. She was just like, 'Kenapa mcm tu? Tu la main2. Takpela. Lain kali buat betul. Adik bolehnye.' It's great to have supportive mom. And i remember when I have a bunch of homeworks given by teacher she kept me accompanied late at night just to see if i was doing fine or not. Of course, she is the only one i live with. All my siblings go to university to study and some of them work at KL. Why would they work in KL. Pfftt =='

Having a sister-in-law is kinda awesome. It's pretty awkward for the first time, but things will work out. Oh yeah, my 2 brothers want to get married as well next year. T__T Ill be sitting for my SPM dude.

A sincere apologise.

Yesterday, someone called me. I dislike people who make phone calls at Maghrib time. It's kinda rude. At least that is what I've been growing up with. Oh, she called me to apologise and want to clear things up. It's really fine dude. I dont hold grudges against you. When i come to think about it, I dont mention anything about that incident. I'm too busy enjoying my holiday. Eat, online, sleep, dancing, feeding cats. Im so busy with these kind of things! So  when she called me about it, ok now i remember it all over again. It's really fine. I dont want to think about it anymore. It's messing up with my brain. Blerghh. Im dead serious when I say I dont want to find enemies or trouble in my school life. It's sickening to have this hateful-looking faces all over me.

I had this weird dream. I mean terrible dream! So dreadful. Someone attacked me and my brother using sword. I mean a crazy person. I was so terrified that it gave me goosebumps. I could feel sweat trickling down my spine. But of course it's my dream. I can create anything. So I fought that crazy man and cut myself with a knife. Blood was oozing all over. I hate blood. T_T

Today it was raining and I feel so sleepy that i can barely open my eyes. Then guess what, flood occured in my kitchen! omg. So the roof is leaking. It's pretty bad. And my mom was not here.

Happy Birthday to my bestfriend. :)

So 10th December 1996, a girl was born on that day. A lovely girl named Nur Aqilah Binti Mohd Rosli. She is my bestfriend. She is the one who always be there for me. When we had fights she was the one who said sorry first even though I am the one who should be blamed. She always do her best to make everyone happy. She is amazing i could say. I always bully her. I adore her seriously. I do think I am not a good friend. I am so grateful to have her in my life. Thank you Allah for her presence in my life. OMG, so ugly this birthday wish. haha look, who drew that. So hideous. LOL. 

Innocent Man

Now im in the mood to digest korean and japanese dramas. I am too exhilarated too watch them!o(≧∇≦o) For now, i watch 'Innocent Man'.  I would say this is a worth-watching drama! It is a good drama that you need to watch. It involves a man uses a girl to seek for revenge but ends up falling in love with her. No! This drama is full of sweetness because the main guy protect that girl. Innocent Man is a drama starring Song Jong Ki and Moon Chae Won. Her characters in that drama was being cocky, rude, haughty and daughter of CEO but she is so adorable! (´ ▽｀).。ｏ♡ I cant resist her. I thought Park Si Yeon was the heroin but it's not.

Im shipping this pairing now! asdfghjkl! They are perfect. What a lovely couple.（＾ω＾） Do watch this drama. You wont be regret. It's full of love, sweet, and revenge! Each actors/actress are very good in potraying their character Especially Park Si Yeon ---> A bad woman who control everything. Well you really want to kick her if you watch this drama XD. She is good in acting! ヽ(＾Д＾)ﾉ

Im a fan Song Jong Ki now. LOL. I dont believe that he turns 27 this year. :O He looks young. How can he be so flawless! (*A*)

Plan for holiday

I have so many things pondered in my mind. I plan so many things to do during this holiday. But .. I dont know where should i begin. (=_=)

First and foremost, i shoud start watching anime once again, So here is the list of animes waiting for me to be watched! (｡♥‿♥｡)
-One Piece
-Kamisama Hajimemashita
-Sukitte Ii Nayo
-Tonari No Kaibutsu-kun
-Death Note
-Ouran Highschool Host Club (for the 2nd time!)
-Ao No Exorcist
-Beelzebub
-Special A
-K-ON the movie

Second, to watch Korean and Japanese dramas! Wheeee~ I miss my Japanese fandom.
Japanese dorama
-Risou no Musuko(Yamada is the hero!)
-Sprout (Chinen is the hero!)
-Meichan no Shitsuji
-GTO(remake)
-Ouran Highschool Host Club the movie!
-Tumbling
-Switch Girl
-Yankee-kun to Megane-Chan
-Nodame Cantabile (both drama and movie)
Korean drama
-Big
-Rooftop Prince
-My Princess
-Innocent Guy
-My Girlfriend Is A Gumiho
-To The Beautiful You

 Taiwanese drama
-When Love Walked In
-Devil Beside You

Third, to read manga! I want to dive into the otaku world. Read a lot of shoujo mangas. Aww! (*≧▽≦)

Fourth, i wanna learn baking. And cooking. LOL. i admit that im quite meticulous in this thing. My mom has been busy for works. I dont want to burden her to cook for me. So i do think that i should start learning how to cook. Well can u imagine, a girl not knowing how to cook fried rice or kuah singgang whatsoever? Oh my god, im ashamed! (╯_╰)  Im thinking to bake cakes like cheese cake and sponge cake. But well, we'll see.  LOL. And yeah not to forget, apam polkadot! yummylicious! (─‿‿─)

Fifth, i wanna surround myself with English novels. Ohhh, i want to read them so bad now. I really like when reading novels. Because i can immerge myself into the magic world. Im more into fiction novels.

Oh yeah this 1st and 2nd of November, imma going to KL for an excursion. Yuhuu! （＾ω＾）

p/s : Im not a good blogger. (.__.")

Exam and problems.

So final-year exam is going berserk. Wanna take revenge on me. Im here sobbing and pitying myself.  (╥_╥). BM is fine, but my English has became weaker and I guess I became stupidier than ever. I dont know what is wrong with me. I really need to buck up and do something about this. Or else my SPM will be full of regret. No i dont want that to happen. I wanna surpass my brother's result as he got straight A1's before. OMG i was very shocked upon knowing that. I really need  him to teach Add Maths and Physics. Need a good tuition from him this holiday.

So, today we had Chemistry and Add Maths papers. Yeah me for not knowing the answers for half of the questions. ｡･ﾟﾟ･(>д<)･ﾟﾟ･｡ Both papers were so hard! I dont know what i was doing just now. I pray hard not to fail any subjects or get C. I wanna A's and B's only. Well there is a program called PISA for those excellent students who score 6A's and just B's. That is not the reason for me to do well for this exam, no i dont want to go to PISA. It's tiring. Yeah it's free funded by Yayasan Pahang but well I dont think i would be able to keep up with school, tuition, homeworks and revision. I could have a mental breakdown! ヽ(ﾟДﾟ)ﾉ

Seriously, Im tired. I really want to resign from being prefects. It's too problematic. It's all rooting to our KP. Wait, he's not my KP. Sorry to say. You dont deserve that position. It's like living in darkest place ever after you took that position. ヽ(#`Д´)ﾉ Get a life dude. Whenever i see you, I could hear whispers saying bad things about you. And about wanna punch your face. (；¬д¬) That bad intention of mine is growing bigger and controlling me. Ya Allah, help me control this.

14/10 is coming.  (/^▽^)/

Bad management

So i told that i will be going to Gambang Waterpark for Science Carnival right? Lol hell no. It turned out to be wrong date haha! There was a misunderstanding between the date where people can come and enclosed competition. And our teachers thought that Wednesday we can take a look the competitiors building their models, but ended up we were not allowed to come in. HAHA! stupid management ever! Yeah stupid. I hate it. We were being like doing nothing and just loitering like stupid people. I was super hungry that time! And the food was sooooo expensive! So we just took a lot of pictures, pictures and pictures again. I wont say much. So take a look. There are more but too lazy.

Problems!

Ok, this week has been hectic and chaos. I wanna cry so bad now. Im tired. I dont know what to do. Im lost. Im dumbfounded. Im angry. I uhhh i dont know!

Well this week, we got a bunch of homeworks to do. We need to do Physics, Add Maths, Chemistry, oh yeah Chemistry. I got 18 spanks from Mr Firdaus. Well it was my fault for not completing the exercises. :( Aida cried. And the emotional Anith cried as well because she couldnt stand seeing Aida getting spanked. She cried like a child! Urm she is always like that. We used to it. But the interesting part is, all the girls cried! haha simultaneously! Yeah, maybe our friendship bond is deep? hehe. But for me, i cried because my hands hurt for getting spanked. T__T Indeed, it hurts A LOT. Then our teacher felt guilty. haha, A man is weak when he see a girl cry. Right?

Afterward, Physics! ya Allah, im getting dumb and dumb. day by day. Please help me ya Allah. It's like I was hit by a truck and having amnesia now. I dont remember anything. Now i need to revise. Please give me strength ya Allah. My August test's result are quite dissapointing. Discontented. I feel so sad. No, everyone is surpassing me. I was left. My rank is low than before.

And now, new problem. About our KP. Oh i cant handle this stress. :( Well i cried. Too many things to do. Hey when i cry, that means i really cant stand it anymore. Im not a girl who will cry just because of something simple. Im strong but well being strong for too long is not a good thing. It will break me apart.

I miss you (＾▽＾)

Wednesday, 11 April 2012

Went to Pekan Sari with this buddy. Homaiii i miss her! （＾ｖ＾）

We lost! XD

Yo people, last Sunday Mighty Minds was held at Megamall. And guess what we LOST. lol. Losers  ㅠ__ㅠ But i still got certification and exeperiences. It was fun! Me, syukriah and azirul. But one of 4 teams which were sent got fifth place from 120 teams. Awesome right!  （゜◇゜）Kak Farah and da gang made it to the final but of course finale will be tough. Can you imagine what was the last question being asked? Who took the role being Izzah in Ombak Rindu? Homaaii. (ーー;) Why they asked this kind of question huh? They should ask something related with Islamic laws. HAHA. Hey Chinese students were there -__- Oh, sorry no pictures. Because the pictures cant be read   ＿|￣|○ Something went wrong with Anith's camera. But we still had fun!!! Yeah! Not to forget about Anith. OMG, she went shopping like crazy. （　ﾟ Дﾟ） haha we had to follow her around and looking for shoes. She is really a pro when it comes to shopping. LOL. Recently, i was in a bad mood. Feeling soooo moody!! Hurmm, i was in pressure i guess. So tension and stressed out. Got mad suddenly, my mood swings unpredictably. And i dont talk at all with my friends. Ugh. (Ｔ▽Ｔ)

That's all. and tomorrow is a holiday! Just one day is not enough. damn. And Aqilah is coming back today. I cant wait to meet her! I miss her. :) O Allah, i want her with us again.∩( ・ω・)∩

It hurts

Today is quite bad for me. This teacher critise the prefects. And of course im aggrieved. Seriously, i felt like want to cry when she mocked and said something bad about prefects. Because for me, the prefects association is just like my family. When get mocked of course im hurt. Im fed up frankly speaking. She said that prefects are cowardice and hampeh. Teacher, not all prefects like that. Like me and friends, we do our job, we are firm and stern. Why do people keep mocking us? Why? That is because the seniors dont cooperate. And juniors just like a chicken. Sooo coward.When we are form 1 and form 2, we are really good batch. Now, they are spoiled. Man, im sad. O Allah, please give me some strength,peresevere and steadfastly endure this. I hate it. I want to be the old PA!!!!

It hurts a lot ..

Do you love chocolates?

Look! My mom bought these from Langkawi Island. Actually there are more. Yeay! Chocolate heaven *q*
But my sisters and brothers took half of them. and now there are few left for me T^T Not enough! I love chocolates ♥

And today. we had Speaking Skill Course conducted by people from ANGKASA. Quite awesome.

Why i created this blog?

This is my first post. Nahh, im thinking what should i write now. Reasons why I created new blog? Just because :) I thought it was cool to have some memories that i can look up by writing my experiences here. Well, someday i might be reading this again. My experiences as a teenager! Yeah absolutely. Oh yeah, i will write in bilingual, Malay and English according to my mood. wehehe~

So today we had an activity in school. That's is cross-country. I was late today. And cried. XD Im too panicked! Luckily Aida came. Thank God. Im saved!  I hate blood. :'( This girl cut herself while slicing the honeydew. The blood is all over T__T I cant stand blood. Gross.

spaghetti with carbonara sauce :)

I had this as lunch today. My favourite western food. Made by my brother and sister. Me? In front of the laptop doing nothing. weehee~  ( ꒪﹃ ꒪)