Neglected

Have you ever felt so sad that you barely could sobbing over it? It's like the pain is too tremendous till your heart gives a last signal that it can no longer contain the feeling after a few times being treated unfairly. So how? What can you really do now exactly?

Being neglected is one hard thing to face. Because you think you are strong but it still beats the emotion. You are fragile and easily breakable now. I hate being neglected. I feel that I am not appreciated. I am not good enough. Still not good enough. What can I do for you to notice me? Do you ever know that it breaks me inside when you ignore me? You will never know that because you are busy with something else. I want you to know that I despise your 'something else'.

Is it really hard to reply when I had conversation with you? Do you know how does it feel when people dont respond when you ask them question? I feel pathetic. Or am I really pathetic to have those conversations with you? Your action gives a big impact to my life. I dont want to take these matters seriously at first but in the end I lost. It escalates faster than I thought.

But still, Im feeling amazing after all. Im getting used for everything. I dont really care anymore. This pain keeps hitting me and I feel heartless. Do whatever you want. Even if I cry, you will never notice and you will never get the root of it. I will cry multiple times but things will never change and that is okay.This is what should be done anyway. No smooth sea makes a great sailor. Im getting stronger anyway. At least that is what I should think for now.

This pain is too great to be tested.
All you can do is to move on and forget those feelings.
Even it's hard.
I can do this. Yes I will.