Hai there. lol im talking to no one. Whatever /o/
So just a bit story of mine. So, 19/12 I went to Teluk Chempedak a.k.a TC. Well just for fun. So before that, i went to see my juniors getting their results (PMR). Alhamdulilah because GPS for my school increased and of course our ranking went up. I just like it because other schools' achievement is quite bad. I know my juniors can do it. They beat us! My batch just can gave 15 persons but they? 31. Double from us! Cool huh~

I will miss them. For sure. I just cant imagine how school without them. I mean, they are adorable. Maybe next year some of them will go to another school. For better future. Tbh, i dislike it.

Nordiyana Binti Zaidi. She will be moving to Taiping, Perak this month. This shocking news jsut unbearable. She is the most adorable junior. The fact that I wont see her again next year is just heart-breaking. Anyway, congratulation to her for getting straight A's. I know, she is something. She is just lovely to me. Oh yeah, next to her, Farhana Nadhirah! Congrats to her for acing the PMR!

So, afterwards I went to TC with Aida, Anith, Qayyum and Azirul. LOl weird isnt it? A guy with a bunch of girls went out together. I didnt expect him to go with us actually. So we took rapidKuantan to go there. I was so excited at first! But with those crowded people, and we were packed inside of it like i could die for feeling too anxious. haha. Cuak!

Lemme tell something. Im so jealous of people who go to Islamic school. Like Maahad, SMKA, KISAS and etc. Deep in my heart, i feel so humble, Feel so small between people who went to islamic school, memorise al-Quran and wear tudung labuh. Not to forget, they are smart. Oh, i like smart people. hehe

So, i log in my facebook almost everyday. My friend list are quite something with people from Maahad, KISAS, and SHAMS. I read all the updates. I saw those students from boarding school with their friends. Im jealous. JEALOUS is a strong word! So let's say im too excited to see them and i know i dont have that kind of thing. Sadlife T^T.. Their ukhuwah is so great. The school is somehow relieving to see. It's really magnificient to see every muslimah wear tudung labuh and cover their aurat properly. I know i wont see this kind of ambience in my school. My school is just SMK. Nothing much. But Im lucky to have friends who reminds me of Allah. My friends who are crazy just like me.

I saw my 'unnie's photos in her facebook. She is someone i know from her blog. I found her blog and added her at facebook. Suprisingly she studies in UIA Kuantan. 6-9 December, IKOD was held in UIA. But I couldnt meet her due to some reasons. Quite sad. T_T I like her. How i wish to be jsut like people i admire. 

Just a thought.

I dont know what to do. Im wasting my holiday unproductively. Sigh. I thought I had many plans to do this holiday without regrettably wasting it. Each day, same things happened. Same routine for a month. Im too bored to do nothing but too lazy to do something. Why is this happening? Next year I will be regretting it for sure. Too much procrastinating, too lazy, dont feel productive at all.

I should chin up. I should buck up. All these things are not going to solve my problems. It's getting bigger and bigger like a balloon soon to be exploded. Next year. I dont want to think about it honestly. But those thoughts keep pondering in my mind and i cant resist from not thinking about it. :( I do think next year will be tough. Of course, i will be sitting for SPM and that feeling is making me sick. I cant bear to think about how i will be next year. I saw my seniors taking their SPM. They were busy like bees. Tuition, class after school, camp, bengkel, PISA. All those are exhausting and i'll be like them next year.

My mom put high expectation on me. Whenever i say that i want to be a doctor or i get good results or whatever i do, she will be always talking , 'So belajar la leklok, jadi doktor. Jangan main'. So i really dont want to keep her down. I wanna show her that her youngest daughter will make her proud. But of course, to make things happen it's a burden though. It's not easy. Unless im a genius. There was a time where, i showed bad results to her. Well i almost got F for my Addmath. She was just like, 'Kenapa mcm tu? Tu la main2. Takpela. Lain kali buat betul. Adik bolehnye.' It's great to have supportive mom. And i remember when I have a bunch of homeworks given by teacher she kept me accompanied late at night just to see if i was doing fine or not. Of course, she is the only one i live with. All my siblings go to university to study and some of them work at KL. Why would they work in KL. Pfftt =='

Having a sister-in-law is kinda awesome. It's pretty awkward for the first time, but things will work out. Oh yeah, my 2 brothers want to get married as well next year. T__T Ill be sitting for my SPM dude.

A sincere apologise.

Yesterday, someone called me. I dislike people who make phone calls at Maghrib time. It's kinda rude. At least that is what I've been growing up with. Oh, she called me to apologise and want to clear things up. It's really fine dude. I dont hold grudges against you. When i come to think about it, I dont mention anything about that incident. I'm too busy enjoying my holiday. Eat, online, sleep, dancing, feeding cats. Im so busy with these kind of things! So  when she called me about it, ok now i remember it all over again. It's really fine. I dont want to think about it anymore. It's messing up with my brain. Blerghh. Im dead serious when I say I dont want to find enemies or trouble in my school life. It's sickening to have this hateful-looking faces all over me.

I had this weird dream. I mean terrible dream! So dreadful. Someone attacked me and my brother using sword. I mean a crazy person. I was so terrified that it gave me goosebumps. I could feel sweat trickling down my spine. But of course it's my dream. I can create anything. So I fought that crazy man and cut myself with a knife. Blood was oozing all over. I hate blood. T_T

Today it was raining and I feel so sleepy that i can barely open my eyes. Then guess what, flood occured in my kitchen! omg. So the roof is leaking. It's pretty bad. And my mom was not here.

Happy Birthday to my bestfriend. :)

So 10th December 1996, a girl was born on that day. A lovely girl named Nur Aqilah Binti Mohd Rosli. She is my bestfriend. She is the one who always be there for me. When we had fights she was the one who said sorry first even though I am the one who should be blamed. She always do her best to make everyone happy. She is amazing i could say. I always bully her. I adore her seriously. I do think I am not a good friend. I am so grateful to have her in my life. Thank you Allah for her presence in my life. OMG, so ugly this birthday wish. haha look, who drew that. So hideous. LOL.