missing a father.

There was a man, a gentleman who caught a woman's heart. They got married and were blessed with 7 children in total. A huge amount for a mom to handle 7 kids at the same time but yet, they were happy.

I miss my father. Thats all i think right now. This nostalgic memories keep haunting me. Tonight, i just feel that i really miss my father. I MISS HIM VERY MUCH THAT NOTHING CAN DESCRIBE MY FEELING RIGHT NOW. I lost my father when i was in standard 2, particularly when i was 8. He left us on 18th February 2004. I took our family albums and now i realise i miss him so much. Too much that i just want to cry tonight. I want to meet him, i want to hug him and say i love him dearly. I dont want him to leave me again. For a child who was 8 yrs old to lose her father, that was a huge impact in her life.Only 8 years with my father and i cant remember well about him. I still have pieces of memories that i keep in my mind but it was just that incomplete. Please ya Allah, i really miss him. Only You who know my feeling right now, it's all messy, my mind is too blank and i miss him. Thats all...

Watching his pictures making my tears stream down my cheeks. He was too handsome and i know why my mom fell in love with him. With his humble personality and putting his family first, my mom was lucky to be with him. I admit that if he was still alive, i will be her only princess. Im closer with my father than my mom. Our father-daughter relationship surpass anything else. Looking through all the pictures and how short time  was for our bond. But still, im blessed for having bits of memories of him. Alhamdulilah because i got to see my father unlike some people out there who doesnt even met their parents for some reasons.

I want to make my father happy.. And i want to do that by making my mom happy. I want to study harder and get excellent result for my SPM. Pls ya Allah, ease my journey and i want to see my mom telling me that she is proud of me. And deep down, i know if my father was still alive, he will say the same thing to me or maybe more than that. I want to be a good daughter to both of them. I want to make them feel relieved for having a daughter like me. Im lucky to have them even we are not rich, even we live in modesty. That's a true happiness actually.

Help me ya Allah.. Help me doing this for the sake of my family and my parents.

Happy Eid

Hey! Wait it's too cliche. Erm wassup bro? lol whatever.

So Happy Eid to all muslims in this world. Alhamdulilah i was given a chance to meet Ramadhan this year and manage to overcome all the trials given. Thanks to Allah for this strength :) Im not sure what to write here. Oh yeah i actually gained some weights after 5 days of Eid. It's 4 kilos!! 4!! What the heck is that? I nearly reach my target to lose some weight during fasting month and now i have to bear this annoying fat. Gosh. I just cant resist rendang, nasi dagang, nasi minyak and also laksa made by mummy. Mom knows how to make me gain weight actually. :'( I shouldnt eat more than quota. Yup there should be a limit after this!! Yada yada yada!

Remember i once said that i wont enjoy this Eid. Well that's a big fat lie! I do enjoy it since my family is back and i feel so guilty.... Because i left my books. I didnt revise anything or read some books even though i know that trial SPM is coming onwards. Just why?! Gahh i should reflect upon this. You are so stupid :(

RS asked for my phone number from my bestfriend. He actually did. I dont know the reason behind all this but he said im a bit cocky lately. Well i've reasons being like that after what he had done to me. But whatever, he pm-ed me wishing happy eid. Dem, it's too awkward really.
No pictures for eid. Too lazy to put them here. Just stalk my instagram. Kbye.