Trial has ended

Hey there!

I had finished my SPM trial examination last Tuesday. THANKS TO GOD. I just cant believe that i managed to overcome those 3 weeks. Im living in despair, i guess im too happy that it has ended. But SPM is coming about 47 days more. :( Afterward, no more school. Ouch, that really hurts actually. I dont want to finish my life as a student in high school. 

And good news to me, I got B for my addmath! YEAYYYYYY! I thought that i will get C for addmath but it turned out good. I feel so blessed. Alhamdulilah even though i didnt get A but this really makes me grateful enough. So i need to execute my nazar if god wills it. :)

So for now, i got 4 subject and thank god all A's for now. i really hope i got 8A's excluding addmath. Please ease it ya Allah. I want my Bio to get A. Because Bio is my passion! hehe and also Physics. I do enjoy Physics :D 

So that's all for now. Gonna update it next time. I want 9A's insyaAllah for SPM.

(Inside of me - Ukiss) 

Addmath is killing me.

Dear bloggie, im on my examination weeks. Precisely saying, spm trial examination. I dont really know how to convey this, but i just want to shed tears right now at this moment. Ive been doing bad in this trial examination. Believe me. I just want to cry and hate myself for being so stupid.

Today we sit for Additional Mathematics paper 2. Why did the person who make this questions want to kill us? Why are you torturing us hah?! Im pretty sure the makers are laughing right now for giving us such pathetic questions. It was like, all my blood, tears and sweet are gone with the wind. My effort all this while is completely vanished in a blink of an eye. I know myself, that im pretty bad in Addmath, but i still try my best to not do the mistakes any longer. I spend my time doing exercises, reading that book, this book and drenched myself with sweat and the thinking for the solution. But today, for the first time i really hate Addmath. No, I HATE THE PERSON WHO MAKE THAT QUESTIONS.

ya Allah, im sure You know what is in my heart right now. You know me very well and You know how fragile i could be. This little thing is breaking me apart. I've done my best ya Allah, im leaving this up to You. I want to seek for Your forgiveness of my negligence and my nonchalant act before. You know what i've been through to achieve this and all the obstacles that i managed to come through. I really hope You will help me, ease me, and give me your barakah. Im nothing without You. La haula wala quwwata ila billah, hil azim hil alim. Tawakaltua ala Allah.

I dont want to give up yet. Yes, i know He is watching me up there. ya Allah, if you hear me. know my predicament, please help me to go through this. Be with me throughout the journey.