I cant sleep.

Sooooooooo it's 2.30 am now. I cant sleep. I drank coffee about 3 hours ago and now here i am. Im being a nocturnal species. Somehow, i feel old whenever i drink coffee. I feel like an oldie. Ugh weird much? Sokay, i will assume coffee as an epitome of maturity and intelligence, and now i feel so intelligent. -.- Hahaha is this a joke? Me, a mature woman? NO WAY. I dont think that i am mature enough to be labelled as matured woman. Yucks. Being a happy kid is just awesome! I know, i act like a kid and i love the way it is. I guess very close friends of mine will know how immature i am. And they still stick with you even though you expose the real you. :) That's a definition for true friend.

Looks like im going to stay up this night. Mid year exam is throwing a tantrum. T_T Burn the midnight oil. Dahlia, you can do it dear. I know you can!! Coaxing myself as no one is here to coax me./le cries/

"Happiness is a cup of coffee and a really good book"

But, what is a good book?? Is it a true happiness when you are reading textbooks instead of good books? Fine, textbooks are good books. Yeah yeah, ok ill accept the reality even it is too cruel for me. I want my life back!! SPM is killing me. Really.

Oh yeah, tomorrow, there will be a bunch of students from Shah Pekan coming to BRASS. Looks like i wont be meeting them.  Pray for me. Mid-year exam please be good. /smile jovially/ I wont be going to school tomorrow! /throws confetti/ How can a sick person go to school? Hehe.

I like staying up late at night. Well you know, you can do something alone like worshipping Allah? Take your sajadah and perform prayers. It is a good timing because you are just by yourself. No one can disturb you. It just you and Him connecting with each other. What is more blissful than confessing all your problems towards The Only One, The Most Merciful? All you receive is an abundance of equanimity. So, why dont you vivify yourself on 4 am and take your abulation? Just 2 rakaat will do. As long as you keep doing it(istiqamah).

Sick.

Hey peeps.
 So i dont feel well recently. I had a fever. Cough, runny nose,sorethroat and headache. Oh whyyyyy/cries/.. Today is Monday, thank god because i can rest as my school is on holiday for a day. It's okay,  a day is enough for a sick people like me to rest. Heww.

And i went to school at 2pm for extra class. Like seriously, my body was too hot and i was like crawling just to go to the class. Sobs. A scorching hot day and high body temperature, NOT A GOOD COMBINATION. I pray hard not to fell down on the street. Haha imagining myself, faint on the streets. LOL too awkward to be true. OMG i dont even want to visualize the scene!

I should be at school yesterday for Hari Anugerah Kecemerlangan. But i was at KL that day. 2 days at KL was enough. No, i dislike KL. Too many cars and buildings. I dislike this ambience. I went there for my cousing's wedding! Abang Hanif is happily married to Suraya hotfm. Wow, you ace it bro! :) I will update about the wedding next time. Gonna spam my blog with pictures /smirks/. Im too busy because mid-year exam is coming. Im not well-prepared! Gahh how T__T Stress out. Can i cry?

Dont hurt her.

It's funny how people blame us for everything when it is clearly portrayed that they are at the wrong side. It is just too funny and unacceptable. I know. I get this feeling where you just want to strangle that particular person and slap them as many as you can. Hahaha. That feeling is heaven

Ultimately that is not going to happen.You eagerly want to do but you know you are boundeid by something and it will never happen. T__T Ohh why... This is unfair. Heww

Oh yeah, why am i saying this all the sudden? Actually why some people decided to rebel others? Wait no, not being rebellious. But i guess, they are stubborn. Yeah! Im sorry to people out there. But please dont be too selfish. You are just thinking about yourself and claim others to be cruel on you. Ugh please!

Please, dont make my bestfriend in anguish. I love her. Whenever she is sad, i just like, oh why ya Allah, why i cant fix her problems? Why? I dont want her to be sad. It just hurts a lot and I cant bear to see her stressing out. It is like, you are not a good friend, you cant solve her problems, you just sit there and watch her in agony. It's like you are no use. You are just a trouble. You are nothing but a friend who is incapable solving her problems. :(

What i want to do now is, just pray. Pray to Allah to ease her days and give her some happiness. Even though i cant give that to her. I hope You does my Lord.

To that particular person, please realise your mistakes and do some reflection upon your attitude. If you dont, im sorry if one day i go berserk and just say something that will break our bond. And i hope that thing would not happen. ya Allah, increase my patience and make me a good khalifah. Control your feeling. Please.

Bye.

p/s : oh yeah good luck to debaters. Representative of BRASS. Good luck to you :) I miss Jojo.

Mental-breakdown

I noticed that my posts are all dramatic, sad and full of agony. hahaha

Whatever. So basically i am busy- i mean TOO BUSY recently. I do need to juggle things and have my schedule well-organized. Duhh. :/

I could be having a mental breakdown at the moment. How can my brain manage to study all the time. Wooo, no way! I aint doing that to my brain. Im afraid my hipotalamus and serebrum will explode! Bam! haha

In the morning, it was fine to go to school. Then rushing my life off to go to SEMSAS for tuitions funded by Yayasan Pahang for 2 hours! At night extra classes at school for another 2 hours!! Those would make about 11 hours of studying? No!! I dislike it a lot. Im incapable doing things simultaneously. I will just mess things up and end up feeling tired. I could suffer from fatigue and in the end getting crazy. Lol hyperbole here we go again. -__-

Bye. I dont know what to say anymore. Because i just had enough already. Huwaaa T__T