Useless

Have you ever felt that you are damn useless and just an annoyance? It's like you are giving something that people dont even care to bother about. You are practically irking and somewhat you think that you are good enough. But contrarily, you are like wasting time and having hopes which can never be defined properly nor even could possibly achieved. Yeah. Wasting time is your major problem whilst others are busy giving their best and be devoted. Allahu. Why me?

I could feel a twinge of regret inside of me. It was crawling and tearing up my heart. ya Allah, it hurts, so much pain that i couldnt bear any longer.

A lot of things happened this past few days. Stress, devastated, cursing, annoying, unrequited love. Too much to handle. God, how stupid. I dont know whether to feel regret or not, as i think this as a thing to remember but at the same time, it's so stupid for causing humiliation to myself. :( M.A.L.U. You are The All Mighty, the one who knows bad and good of me. I give this matter to you because i just can bear it alone. I need You so my heart is in peace.

8A's! :)

My result is just as expected!! Alhamdulilah. All praises to Allah!! I got 8A's and 1B(addmath-_-). But it's so relief upon knowing this. I've never thought that i will get 8a's for my trial because people said trial SPM is quite hard than the real one. Alhamdulilah it turned out good. I know my mom is proud of me when i told her my result. She smiled and that's the happiest thing that i want to see from her. I just want her to feel proud of me, this is a token to her for raising me all this while after ayah died. She is just too amazing for raising 7 children all by herself. Thank you mama for giving me your love. I want to see your smile more and more. Please ya Allah, ease her daily routine and give her strength.

And now, im working out for my Addmath. Im trying everything i could to reach my target. But still im worried. I still feel insecure about my mark. So i want to reach my target of getting paper 1, 60 and above while paper 2 65 and above. Yosh, i can do this!! I really love addmath even though it is my critical subject but i cant hate it. I do enjoy doing Addmath. It's fun believe me :) 

Oh yeah, Im ranked fourth in school ranking. Yeay :) I reached my target which was getting 7A's and above for trial examination. :3 Not to mention, i got no A- this time! All A's and A+'s. Yeay happy me is happy. Physics, Biology and Chemistry are all 80 and above. Thank to god.

I dont want to take things for granted for now. Im gonna pursue my dreams and make my mom cry when the result is out in March 2014. 

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